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Wednesday, April 05, 2006


Mr. X approached me on msn, acted friendly. Asked me bout wad is the problem. Told him bout wad happened bout the notes n stuff, asking for his explanation...
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MrX:
erm i am not mr friendly..
MrX:
and i have gf..
MrX:
i am jus ur fren..so i am doing wad a fren should do..
MrX:
jk and talk with u..
MrX:
but theres a distance i should keep...
MrX:
so i am not behaving that gentlemen as u expect...
MrX:
but this is how i behave to all girls..
MrX:
then i mean everyone has their temper..
MrX:
so this is my reason...
MrX:
i dun wan unnecessary trouble to u or myself..
MrX:
ppl may think other wise..
MrX:
and u have bf too..

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Is it me or issit that i dun find tt a good excuse for helpin fren out?
On further toking, it was realised that Mr. X and the other fren unanimously felt this
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MrX:
but most of the time i have to tolerate ur nagging and condemnation?
Me:
since when did i ask u to do tings to humour me
MrX:
not humour..
MrX:
but listening to ur nagging?
MrX:
i mean the way it is make us feel shocked..
MrX:
coz u were nagging..
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Me:
u jus b urself, i b myself, dun step on my tail n i wunt bother u as well
MrX:
u are really too much..
“other gal fren" has been added to the conversation.

MrX:
how u expect me to change jus for u?
Me:
Me:says:
since u din wan, den nvm lo..u dun haf to change urself for anyone, particularly me..so u can remain ur own way, so long and so far as u dun step on my tail

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I felt tt he is trying to act pitiful by saying tt i m expecting for him to change for me, the moment the other is added (by him) into the conversation. As such, I repeated wad I said to him tt made him said that words.

further asked tt gal fren later on...
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galfren says:
k, one thing first, we not bad mouthing u or wat. we felt that this is ur personaltity or character.
galfren says:
then i personally felt that Mr.X is only having fun (abt the slamming door)
galfren says:
abt the nagging, its not literally nagging, sometimes its tat u speak too fast, maybe we had a misunderstanding abt that. but we din mean that u are bad or wat
galfren says:
we koe thats ur character..so we both felt that ur character is like that..and we are not going against it..
galfren says:
and yes, he is not gentlemen or sometimes not helpful
galfren says:
i agree with that, but he apologise liao, and thats the way he is..so i am not going against his charc too..
galfren says:
so like u, i am not going against ur charc too..
galfren says:
so not to say who is true or not..but the point is he apologise, then he say sth abt u, so that hope u also be aware of it..and next time he also will be careful with his actions..
me says:
seriously..if u were to ask me again...i dun care wad he do w, in future or nt
Me says:
u can accept him..hopefully he do change..its u n him
Me says:
i m outta tis
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Seriously, I am naggy? His defination of naggin is bout me saying bout the food expensive, sae tis n tt...bt excuse me, noe me well and noe, I m no rich person. And, I do hold a high standard when it comes to food. I haf high expectations for food, especially when it comes to fish, coz I eat alot of fish, and I do like fresh fish...and is v particular bout it.That's by far the few tings tt he said tt defines me as naggy...

Greats. A person whom I condem, condemning me. TT makes me feel even more lousy than a person he is.

Jus wan some frank opinion, nt tt it will change much, coz I made up my mind already.
Firstly, my wanting of frank opinion. Am I naggy? Sorry, do pardon my naive-ness, bt I had always tot tt my chatty nature was a way of communicating, chatting with frenz. I have been, an almost happy-go-lucky kinda person, chatting, making jokes, laughing. I tok alot...If tis is naggy, sorry to all u guys who haf to tolerate with my naggy nature...

In a way, if all along tis is indeed being naggy, so sorry, for I do feel aggrieved...That I tot I was jus being talkative, yet no, I m naggy...within frenz gathering, I do try to tok more. Create mood. Among family, during our dining, I do, tok more, at least we wont b sitting there looking at each other and jus eat...and to this pair, by me, jus gradin the food, givin my opinion on the food...food which is someting wich I m critical, n perhaps, picky bout....

Naively, I feel that all along, there is the sad side of me, bt why do I stil b happy, and keep chatting, keeping troubles away, chatting as if the sky fall down, I wld jus use it as a blanket? Am I forcing and faking a happy Elaine? If so, y do i try so hard to b someone I m nt and..end up...with the term "naggy"?

Perhaps I am naggy...and all haf been polite enuf to keep it from me...

In any case, I have decided... I shall b silent for some time... Some time to b a quiet person I was... The reserved and shy person whom I m seen by many to be.... I have decided, to retreat to be..perhaps...the person I truly am..Instead of the chirpy Elaine...whom I mite b actin to b.

I m pretty lost...many a times..tis time..On who...Elaine is..Wad kinda of person Elaine is... Is she the reserved one? Or the chirpy one..Or...the Naggy one...




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