late at night when all the world's...sleeping... I stay up and think..of you.....
That is a sweet song..by Selena..The singer who could have made it real big, if not for the fact she passed away at the peak of her career, at the tender age of 23...
I want to sleep too..but jus like the song, I stay up..and think...not jus of a person..but of alot of things...again..
the Thinking mEow... lots of quotes just struck me... quotes like,
一个人可以为了一棵树，而放弃整片森林吗？
多少人会为了第一棵树，而放弃探索森林？
How many ppl are willing to, meet the first love, never to fall out of love. And be happily married to the first woman they meet. I used to believe in such happily ever after. But now, I dont dare to put much faith on it.
多少人会为了第一棵树，而放弃探索森林？
Well, I was willing to. Meet the first tree, be happy with that tree, and give up exploring the whole forest. But unfortunately, our path crossed in the opposite directions, and the quote of "The grass is greener on the other side", surfaced... Of cos, he din say it, but I guess, that's the whole idea. And although I m convinced I m happy with wadever grass I m taking, once his decision is made, nothing can be changed.
Then the quote, 好马不吃回头草. come in handy...So, he never look back despite all my clinging on.
finally, the quote, 女人, 就是这么"好傻好天真". oops,sensitive phrase to use?
Further quoting what Russell Peters says, he love women too much, that's why cant get married. Cos if he does, he will only love woman, a single woman. not women... are all..guys..like this?
Today, I tink of alot of things...again... Thinking,thinking, I started missing...alot of tings...
Today, I miss..the taste of bin bin..craved for it..and so, bought it.
I miss the...peaceful, happy, simple life...
I miss...my straight/wavy hair...
emo-ing..
The one thing I dun miss? Taking bus...151...It always give me alot of time..to tink..and tink..and think...
Too much time to tink.
I keep asking the same qns, every time I think.
一个男人,能爱一个女人,白头偕老?
Just mths ago, I wld say, with that stupid blissful smile on my face, "Yes, of cos"...and yet ironically, now, I keep asking, cos I no longer know the answer...
I asked many ppl. Everyone tries to convince me, its possible.
Oh yea? Yea! they wld say.
Sometimes, I wld say,"Yea you are right..." But, I cannot convince myself. That there are such...guys in this world..anymore..There have been too many facts, of guys..cheating on their partners...Instincts, some say. Guys...are meant to be so. Nature made them so...But human..we are different..there are faithful guys, yes... As much as I tell myself, I tell everyone, I believe..Deep inside me...I know..for..both he n me..believed once, that ... there is, and will be only one... Surprised, shocked, or wadever, tt.. there will be mutual attraction happening between him..and someone, other than me. And I m no longer, the One, the Only One.
"我不相信,也不敢相信.不知道,怎样让自己相信. "
How can I believe again? I.... have...no idea...
----------------------------------------------------------------- Got this from... my dear gf's friendster profile..
Sometimes you wonder, if life has an expiry date? Does love has as well?
Will you wake up one day and realized that you no longer loved the one who is sleeping beside you?
Or you suddenly realized that the person who’s currently holding your hand is not the one whom you loved most?
I believe there’s an expiry date in everything for if there’s a beginning, there will be an end.
What matter most is the times that were spent among this period. Love will expired one day but memories will not. Hopefully it is this that keeps us going on till the day when we are all expired. I can only secretly hoped that my life will end first before my love.
------------------------------------
MSN is nt the same without u...again...yes u...u noe who u are... I MISS YOU!
I guess, it is so easy to get emo on a rainy weather. I guess, I m emo-ing also because...the vain mEow just got scarred. By the touch of a hot iron. A 6cm long burn mark across my shoulder. A vain mEow having a scar across her shoulder. Makes her scared of looking back, at the scar. Makes her scared of looking at the mirror, to see the scarred her. Makes her...more depressed than she looks. Makes her..more depressed than she seems.
I remember I was recalling my JC2's essay. 失眠之夜. How 80%,nono, 90%..or rather, 95% since it is like 1 outta the whole class wrote wrong, cos we all ended with, 想着想着，我睡着了. Cos, 失眠之夜, u aint supposed to sleep, get it? So those, say, all of us who wrote the above statement, wld have got the whole thing WRONG.
Ok, so the story about me is, my 失眠之夜. I dunno.
Mayb I slept too much in the day. Mayb many things went thru my mind. Mayb it was the tv outside that kept me awake. Its the itch from the dammit mosquito. But the point is, I AM, awake thru the night. darn.
Actually to say the fact, all of the above are true.
I napped abit thru the day. I was listening to the highly interesting 包公 that my dad was watching. Some mosquito or mosquitos are feasting on me. I got like 6 stings in that duration and as I put the anti itch cream. It seeped into my wound from the blading and created an itchy stinging painful sensation. GREAT!
Oh yes, the emo me was thinking alot of things.
I recalled, someone told me, "Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on."
Hmm.... Really?
I dunno if its true to say this, but I dun agree.
Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on, but me, I dun intend to cry, so I dun need a shoulder to cry on.
True mah?
Hmm..mayb... But say the truth...mayb....a shoulder to lean on would be nice...wuahaha............ ............... ...................... .............................. .......................................... ......................................................
It would appear that you are experiencing one problem after another. When one problem is resolved, another seems to immediately take its place. It could well be that you are trying too desperately to evade or to escape from your present situation and it is 'you' that is causing the problems to manifest themselves. You need to slow down a little.
You are a leader and possibly at this tine in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.
You feel very lonely and frustrated at this time but your shyness and modesty precludes you from establishing any deep form of relationship. You feel rather isolated and alone. You are egocentric and you believe that you are always right - well maybe you are - but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.
You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.
You feel that you need to move on. You feel that you are not appreciated or valued for what you are and that the time is 'now'. Failure to do so will not afford you the conditions to prove your worth.
Morning 10am wake up,unhappily..cos gt bad dreams again. darn, shld have woke earlier, den mayb wont dream those dreams..
I rushed to market and buy the ingredients for today. Yep, today, really gonna cook.
So,auntie picture no.1
Ever wonder why auntie like to put their plastic bag likdat? Cos, actually, its the most, easiest. Cos, if u hold on the hand, the plastic will cut into the hand, so, carrying it likdat, most auntie, but most convenient.
Bought an apron. So i dun dirty my cute pink shirt. :D
Auntie pic no. 2 & 3
doing the Karen-thing the auntie way. *ahem* why is my apron... :x erh..1buck only.. wad u expect?
Today's menu 1) 猪脚醋 2) 麻油鸡 3) 蚝油炒小小白菜 4) 魚翅瓜汤
huh?wad 瓜wad小小白菜 ? well, its mini-小白菜 thus the name.
猪脚醋 First time cooking by myself . Previously, seen his mum cook before, tis time round, mEow the auntie is gonna try it all by herself. :D
Looks decent bah..for . Took a few hrs to cook it. Cos needa stew for a long time. The sauce was ok..but the failure part..the meat... the pork seller chop into too small..upon boiling with the super almighty- AMC pot, all the meat...dissolved..and instead of 猪脚醋，I'm left with 肉丁 when everyone's ready to eat...so, quickly remedy by adding in some chicken feet, my mum's fave in and cook again..taste quite good too... 鸡脚醋。。。ok. lol bah~
Still...I m pleased that my mum commented that the taste is better than the 猪脚醋sold downstairs. :D
So, I rate it, Success!
The rest of the dish, quite easy..nothin to say much.
Let me intro my fave knife:
mini chopper. Cute rite? :D But its very sharp ok!
The vege:
the chicken:
The 魚翅瓜汤
Wads this? Why such a weird name? Well, u see, when its cooked, it looks like this:
Suposedly, its to look lik 鱼翅。 Thus, the name.
Why I lik this soup?
Wads this?
This is the seeds. Of the melon. The close to 100 seeds that one must remove from the melon before it is cooked. Cos the seed is nt to be eaten.
Thus, as u can see, the massive amt of work involved in cooking, compared to the rest of the soup. So, this is rarely cooked outside. Rather, I've never found a place selling this. And I bet some 90% of u nv hear of it before,much less, eaten tis before... :D
No one wld spend such effort jus to sell the soup at 4bucks? So, tis is a dish that is homecooked then,get to eat it.
I love it. Cos first time I eat is at my grandma hse. It tasted heavenly. I wanted to drink again, bt my mum dun like the hassle. So, if I wanna eat, I must cook it myself. And so, whenever I get to cook soup, this, is on the first of my list. It's one of my 拿手好菜。And, no salt no msg!
Actually, all my dishes no use salt n msg at all..see so healthy...=)
So, while auntie mEow is busy cooking, wad are my kitties up to?
Mewmew is busy in the kitchen as my assistant..
* i will clear the food yep!*
Maomao monitors me, while I m resting while letting my food stew.
Aint my cats v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v cute? :D
Thats all from auntie mEow.
***** Preparation time: 2hrs Cooking time: 1hr Cost of ingredients: ard $30-$40 Cost Value of homecooked food: Priceless *****
See, i've fulfilled more of my resolution. happy mEow day.
Woke up feeling moody though..din have a good dream..again.
Supposed to go museum de, but fren last min got urgent matters, so we got to stay home and slack. :D
And, i fulfilled some of my resolution which I made.
Check this out, my 杯面really tasted fantastic. And yes, it is like the one from Taiwan. Either my dad or sis got it from tw, or some smart a*s have brought this high-in-demand cup noodle to singapore, and my mum bought it from the megastore downstairs.
The meat is...Worh~ and the soup..and the...aaagh..it jus taste good..it've got to be the best cup noodle anyone ever created..with meat...oh my, hw can anyone be so ingenious?
so, as usual, was chatting with 24-hr-online-Turtle.She say she wanna go gym, but shy. So I suggested, blading..
Cos well, since the last time I went bladin which ended up in this:
(hw did i did it? erm...slope+speed+turning corner+mentality to fall = felled mEow)
I've learnt thru this hard way of hw to blade. While listening to jay's song on the way back, I kinda...领悟 hw to blade better..and I did bladed better..I think, its the mind too..Cos I m always too scared to fall, so kinda dun dare to try anything more beyond my comfort zone.. and now, I've step outta my fears, and yippe, I think I can blade better nw. ha..how ironic when I say it, and dun do it..to other parts of my life.
So, I m like, tempted to cfm my suspicions that i m a better blader. So, the chance came, and I grabbed it.
So, we made the date, at 7pm. Go Ecp.
And, though got lost abit, we made it. Bladed for ard... 2hrs, and NO FALLS! Yippee! And the best part, I've learnt to handle slope better... I dare to go down slope with more confidence. N, the slope at ecp near the water-sports area while I previously grabbed tightly for dear life when I was gg down that slope, I glided down nicely this time. *proud of the mEow*.
Achievement of the Month!
So, well done mEow, for fulfilling some of the resolution, and, learning to blade better.
A well-spent day brings good sleep -Leonardo da Vinci
With this sweet video song, Hope everyone (including/especially me) gets a good night sleep.
Women, rather, I can never know what I really want can I?
I wanna go on this summer programme to go overseas, then I grumble and feel unhappy when this holiday dont feel lik a holiday as it is coupled with lectures and stuff...
late at night when all the world's...sleeping... I stay up and think..of you.....
That is a sweet song..by Selena..The singer who could have made it real big, if not for the fact she passed away at the peak of her career, at the tender age of 23...
I want to sleep too..but jus like the song, I stay up..and think...not jus of a person..but of alot of things...again..
the Thinking mEow... lots of quotes just struck me... quotes like,
一个人可以为了一棵树，而放弃整片森林吗？
多少人会为了第一棵树，而放弃探索森林？
How many ppl are willing to, meet the first love, never to fall out of love. And be happily married to the first woman they meet. I used to believe in such happily ever after. But now, I dont dare to put much faith on it.
多少人会为了第一棵树，而放弃探索森林？
Well, I was willing to. Meet the first tree, be happy with that tree, and give up exploring the whole forest. But unfortunately, our path crossed in the opposite directions, and the quote of "The grass is greener on the other side", surfaced... Of cos, he din say it, but I guess, that's the whole idea. And although I m convinced I m happy with wadever grass I m taking, once his decision is made, nothing can be changed.
Then the quote, 好马不吃回头草. come in handy...So, he never look back despite all my clinging on.
finally, the quote, 女人, 就是这么"好傻好天真". oops,sensitive phrase to use?
Further quoting what Russell Peters says, he love women too much, that's why cant get married. Cos if he does, he will only love woman, a single woman. not women... are all..guys..like this?
Today, I tink of alot of things...again... Thinking,thinking, I started missing...alot of tings...
Today, I miss..the taste of bin bin..craved for it..and so, bought it.
I miss the...peaceful, happy, simple life...
I miss...my straight/wavy hair...
emo-ing..
The one thing I dun miss? Taking bus...151...It always give me alot of time..to tink..and tink..and think...
Too much time to tink.
I keep asking the same qns, every time I think.
一个男人,能爱一个女人,白头偕老?
Just mths ago, I wld say, with that stupid blissful smile on my face, "Yes, of cos"...and yet ironically, now, I keep asking, cos I no longer know the answer...
I asked many ppl. Everyone tries to convince me, its possible.
Oh yea? Yea! they wld say.
Sometimes, I wld say,"Yea you are right..." But, I cannot convince myself. That there are such...guys in this world..anymore..There have been too many facts, of guys..cheating on their partners...Instincts, some say. Guys...are meant to be so. Nature made them so...But human..we are different..there are faithful guys, yes... As much as I tell myself, I tell everyone, I believe..Deep inside me...I know..for..both he n me..believed once, that ... there is, and will be only one... Surprised, shocked, or wadever, tt.. there will be mutual attraction happening between him..and someone, other than me. And I m no longer, the One, the Only One.
"我不相信,也不敢相信.不知道,怎样让自己相信. "
How can I believe again? I.... have...no idea...
----------------------------------------------------------------- Got this from... my dear gf's friendster profile..
Sometimes you wonder, if life has an expiry date? Does love has as well?
Will you wake up one day and realized that you no longer loved the one who is sleeping beside you?
Or you suddenly realized that the person who’s currently holding your hand is not the one whom you loved most?
I believe there’s an expiry date in everything for if there’s a beginning, there will be an end.
What matter most is the times that were spent among this period. Love will expired one day but memories will not. Hopefully it is this that keeps us going on till the day when we are all expired. I can only secretly hoped that my life will end first before my love.
------------------------------------
MSN is nt the same without u...again...yes u...u noe who u are... I MISS YOU!
I guess, it is so easy to get emo on a rainy weather. I guess, I m emo-ing also because...the vain mEow just got scarred. By the touch of a hot iron. A 6cm long burn mark across my shoulder. A vain mEow having a scar across her shoulder. Makes her scared of looking back, at the scar. Makes her scared of looking at the mirror, to see the scarred her. Makes her...more depressed than she looks. Makes her..more depressed than she seems.
I remember I was recalling my JC2's essay. 失眠之夜. How 80%,nono, 90%..or rather, 95% since it is like 1 outta the whole class wrote wrong, cos we all ended with, 想着想着，我睡着了. Cos, 失眠之夜, u aint supposed to sleep, get it? So those, say, all of us who wrote the above statement, wld have got the whole thing WRONG.
Ok, so the story about me is, my 失眠之夜. I dunno.
Mayb I slept too much in the day. Mayb many things went thru my mind. Mayb it was the tv outside that kept me awake. Its the itch from the dammit mosquito. But the point is, I AM, awake thru the night. darn.
Actually to say the fact, all of the above are true.
I napped abit thru the day. I was listening to the highly interesting 包公 that my dad was watching. Some mosquito or mosquitos are feasting on me. I got like 6 stings in that duration and as I put the anti itch cream. It seeped into my wound from the blading and created an itchy stinging painful sensation. GREAT!
Oh yes, the emo me was thinking alot of things.
I recalled, someone told me, "Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on."
Hmm.... Really?
I dunno if its true to say this, but I dun agree.
Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on, but me, I dun intend to cry, so I dun need a shoulder to cry on.
True mah?
Hmm..mayb... But say the truth...mayb....a shoulder to lean on would be nice...wuahaha............ ............... ...................... .............................. .......................................... ......................................................
It would appear that you are experiencing one problem after another. When one problem is resolved, another seems to immediately take its place. It could well be that you are trying too desperately to evade or to escape from your present situation and it is 'you' that is causing the problems to manifest themselves. You need to slow down a little.
You are a leader and possibly at this tine in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.
You feel very lonely and frustrated at this time but your shyness and modesty precludes you from establishing any deep form of relationship. You feel rather isolated and alone. You are egocentric and you believe that you are always right - well maybe you are - but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.
You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.
You feel that you need to move on. You feel that you are not appreciated or valued for what you are and that the time is 'now'. Failure to do so will not afford you the conditions to prove your worth.
Morning 10am wake up,unhappily..cos gt bad dreams again. darn, shld have woke earlier, den mayb wont dream those dreams..
I rushed to market and buy the ingredients for today. Yep, today, really gonna cook.
So,auntie picture no.1
Ever wonder why auntie like to put their plastic bag likdat? Cos, actually, its the most, easiest. Cos, if u hold on the hand, the plastic will cut into the hand, so, carrying it likdat, most auntie, but most convenient.
Bought an apron. So i dun dirty my cute pink shirt. :D
Auntie pic no. 2 & 3
doing the Karen-thing the auntie way. *ahem* why is my apron... :x erh..1buck only.. wad u expect?
Today's menu 1) 猪脚醋 2) 麻油鸡 3) 蚝油炒小小白菜 4) 魚翅瓜汤
huh?wad 瓜wad小小白菜 ? well, its mini-小白菜 thus the name.
猪脚醋 First time cooking by myself . Previously, seen his mum cook before, tis time round, mEow the auntie is gonna try it all by herself. :D
Looks decent bah..for . Took a few hrs to cook it. Cos needa stew for a long time. The sauce was ok..but the failure part..the meat... the pork seller chop into too small..upon boiling with the super almighty- AMC pot, all the meat...dissolved..and instead of 猪脚醋，I'm left with 肉丁 when everyone's ready to eat...so, quickly remedy by adding in some chicken feet, my mum's fave in and cook again..taste quite good too... 鸡脚醋。。。ok. lol bah~
Still...I m pleased that my mum commented that the taste is better than the 猪脚醋sold downstairs. :D
So, I rate it, Success!
The rest of the dish, quite easy..nothin to say much.
Let me intro my fave knife:
mini chopper. Cute rite? :D But its very sharp ok!
The vege:
the chicken:
The 魚翅瓜汤
Wads this? Why such a weird name? Well, u see, when its cooked, it looks like this:
Suposedly, its to look lik 鱼翅。 Thus, the name.
Why I lik this soup?
Wads this?
This is the seeds. Of the melon. The close to 100 seeds that one must remove from the melon before it is cooked. Cos the seed is nt to be eaten.
Thus, as u can see, the massive amt of work involved in cooking, compared to the rest of the soup. So, this is rarely cooked outside. Rather, I've never found a place selling this. And I bet some 90% of u nv hear of it before,much less, eaten tis before... :D
No one wld spend such effort jus to sell the soup at 4bucks? So, tis is a dish that is homecooked then,get to eat it.
I love it. Cos first time I eat is at my grandma hse. It tasted heavenly. I wanted to drink again, bt my mum dun like the hassle. So, if I wanna eat, I must cook it myself. And so, whenever I get to cook soup, this, is on the first of my list. It's one of my 拿手好菜。And, no salt no msg!
Actually, all my dishes no use salt n msg at all..see so healthy...=)
So, while auntie mEow is busy cooking, wad are my kitties up to?
Mewmew is busy in the kitchen as my assistant..
* i will clear the food yep!*
Maomao monitors me, while I m resting while letting my food stew.
Aint my cats v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v cute? :D
Thats all from auntie mEow.
***** Preparation time: 2hrs Cooking time: 1hr Cost of ingredients: ard $30-$40 Cost Value of homecooked food: Priceless *****
See, i've fulfilled more of my resolution. happy mEow day.
Woke up feeling moody though..din have a good dream..again.
Supposed to go museum de, but fren last min got urgent matters, so we got to stay home and slack. :D
And, i fulfilled some of my resolution which I made.
Check this out, my 杯面really tasted fantastic. And yes, it is like the one from Taiwan. Either my dad or sis got it from tw, or some smart a*s have brought this high-in-demand cup noodle to singapore, and my mum bought it from the megastore downstairs.
The meat is...Worh~ and the soup..and the...aaagh..it jus taste good..it've got to be the best cup noodle anyone ever created..with meat...oh my, hw can anyone be so ingenious?
so, as usual, was chatting with 24-hr-online-Turtle.She say she wanna go gym, but shy. So I suggested, blading..
Cos well, since the last time I went bladin which ended up in this:
(hw did i did it? erm...slope+speed+turning corner+mentality to fall = felled mEow)
I've learnt thru this hard way of hw to blade. While listening to jay's song on the way back, I kinda...领悟 hw to blade better..and I did bladed better..I think, its the mind too..Cos I m always too scared to fall, so kinda dun dare to try anything more beyond my comfort zone.. and now, I've step outta my fears, and yippe, I think I can blade better nw. ha..how ironic when I say it, and dun do it..to other parts of my life.
So, I m like, tempted to cfm my suspicions that i m a better blader. So, the chance came, and I grabbed it.
So, we made the date, at 7pm. Go Ecp.
And, though got lost abit, we made it. Bladed for ard... 2hrs, and NO FALLS! Yippee! And the best part, I've learnt to handle slope better... I dare to go down slope with more confidence. N, the slope at ecp near the water-sports area while I previously grabbed tightly for dear life when I was gg down that slope, I glided down nicely this time. *proud of the mEow*.
Achievement of the Month!
So, well done mEow, for fulfilling some of the resolution, and, learning to blade better.
A well-spent day brings good sleep -Leonardo da Vinci
With this sweet video song, Hope everyone (including/especially me) gets a good night sleep.
Women, rather, I can never know what I really want can I?
I wanna go on this summer programme to go overseas, then I grumble and feel unhappy when this holiday dont feel lik a holiday as it is coupled with lectures and stuff...
the thinking mEow
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