Life..is such a weird thing. In a blink or two, each of us are in our different uni-s drifting away and soon graduation comes and we drifted from month-apart meetings to years-apart meetings...wow...
And then we lead out own lives then and there and forgot the good times that we had in our sch days...
People come and exit from our lives...
That sometimes, I wonder, wad lasts?
Nothing I guess...every human have a lifespan...
The show, "Gu Gu the Cat"... makes me so scared of losin wad I hold dear in my heart... Indeed, tears were rollin down my cheeks. Not cos of the touching scenes bt cos I related how its gonna apply to me few years from now..
And I wonder how I wld cope with it.
Sometimes, I really wished there aint someting I hold dear to my heart so that the pain wont b great when u lose it. But isnt it gonna b saded if u were to live a life knowin u haf noting tt u hold dear to ur heart?
Life...is a curious ting.... People u took for granted and let exit from ur life, and things u hold dear to ur heart, but cant escape from the cycle of exiting ur life..
Sometimes....I jus look ard me and see all the friends I've got, and lost...
And wonder...who still considers me as friends, and who no longer does?
I've gained great friens, and lost some good-to-chat-everything with-friends.
But I jus wonder sometimes, hw can ppl u chersh the friendship we hold and yet the other party does nt care bout the friendship.
As I m gazing ard Fb randomly, checking out the websites and friends' links...it sometimes pains to see and tink thru all the up & down in life and go..sighz..well, its over... history...and wonder y U dun put tt history behind u and heck.
Mayb cos friendship means alot to u and when ppl jus let it go so easily, it hurts? Mayb cos I m jus emo-ing now. Mayb...
A fren ask me if I m celebrating tonite, afterall, its New Year.
Unfortunately he caught me at a wrong timing. Call it mood swing, or wadever, bt my sharp and rude reply was,
"Wads there to celebrate?"
"It's not like the last year was so painful that we have to celebrate it's over"
Oh yea, rude, Yes. I can be quite a bitch when I want to aint it?
It's not like it's so painful, or is it?
After tat conversation, I went to try to nap. Cant get to sleep as tings race thru my mind. I started clearing and throwing away some things. Some stuff that I've kept for more than 4 years. Sometings that I once held dear to my heart. Some things I painfully kept, preserved and made sure they last, I threw. Oh well, noting last forever wad.
I packed up those stuff that I wish to keep away from my sight. I shld have kept them away long ago. But finally, I did.
And, for the last day of the year, I've decided to pack up everything, my heart, my stuff, those stuff that I shld have packed, and move on with life and embrace the new new year. A year where things will be drastically different. A year wich will be better than the previous.
I cried out my last bit of tears for no good reasons, not cos I cant forget him, not cos I miss him, but that I recalled of how I had fell in love with a stranger and given my heart away, and eventually, got it broken. Mayb I jus cant forgive, mayb I jus wanna moisturise my eyes, or mayb, I jus want to do so cos its the last day of the year.
Cos nxt yr on, I will not shed a drop of tear for any guy.
.男人不该让女人流泪.
I m sick and tired of crying myself to sleep sometimes. I m sick and tired of crying myself to comfort. I m sick and tired of crying,nt cos I m touched,but cos I m sad and hurt. I m sick and tired of being hurt.
So next yr, I wont let tis happen. And so, my resolution for the comin new year, wich I will accomplish.
1) Concentrate fully on studies without skippin (too many) lectures.
As I tried switching on the lights at 4am in the attempt to finish up my report. To my dismay, it flickered and din switch on.
-.-"'...
I sensed the irony, cos before I took my nap, I was reading this and thinking, wah, when a person is sway, all this can go wrong. Murphy's law.
And guess wad, the nxt ting I know, it happened to me. :(
As I m rushing my many reports, struggling to meet deadlines while juggling my inefficiency and painfully slow pace at producing reports, constipating intensively at my writings, light have to break down.
Suddenly reminded of the few incidents :
Incident 1: When I m trying to fix up uPure
I was twisting using all my might, using spanner stil cannot fix it. Already contemplating calling for help le (the sales person gave me his hp and say if i cant fix, he can come over help me fix up my uPure). My dad suddenly came over and effortlessly twisted off the nozzle, which I was struggling to remove for the past 30min then...I Finally could fix on the uPure.
Incident 2: When the lights flickered.
Yep, incident 2, as described above, I m trying to get some work done and the lights flickered and refused to work.
It is at times like this when I feel, got if house got some guy to help,hw nice it would be. :x
Ok, yah, I m lazy, or incompetent, ok, I admit...*bleah* So, it is at times like this when the thought of jus, findin a man to do the job flashed thru my mind.
So as I m sulking over the need to climb up to reach the living room lights to 'steal' the starter from tt light to fix onto my room's light(while struggling to use my hp to light up the way), I saw little Pig playing by the scratching chair in my room. She is so tiny then, 300gm fluffy pig screaming for milk. And I kinda pretty much single-handedly raised this piggiE (suddenly feel like a single mum).
What cant I do?
After this, I became dam determined to finish the task myself. And I did.
Then, this song flashed into my mind: (ps: lower volume as voice mayb a bit, 刺耳 cos pitch is high)
Subsequently, I gave up. I m growing loner it seems... either i din managed to meet people for lunch, or /and now, even chilling out oso no kakee..
Fortunately, willy was nice enuf to pei me for the day after we settled the work stuff, and we went sit ard and ended up drinking jus milk tea..erm..but hey, at least not lonely at home on this halloween.
But why does everyone, mEow inclusive, hates eating alone?
After I m single, I tot, hmm..I can do things alone, freedom! Yes! I beamed with confidence.
Until the time comes when I needa eat. I realised that human are indeed social animals.
I m constantly looking for supper kakee, lunch kakee..without meals-kakee, meals are meaningless,tasteless...aint it?
:(
That day, I tot, hmm..I'll jus finish up my meal alone, chop chop eat le den go meet my fren. No big deal. As I step into Mad Jack, the waiter asked, table for how many? To which I replied,
"Table for One"...
Suddenly, my stomach quenched and my hunger became non-existent.
A sudden gap and vacuum surfaced.
Suddenly realised how lonely one (mEow) can be.
Fortunately, the day was saved by a sms sent and help was on the way. Soon, I have one person staring at me eat my meal. zzz...better than noting...
Today, I was looking for lunch kakee too. Was ard tpy/bishan area, the familiar place, but..could find no one to eat with. LL eat alone..and the food I ordered was left half eaten though it was 3pm and that was my first meal of the day...
I remember I was recalling my JC2's essay. 失眠之夜. How 80%,nono, 90%..or rather, 95% since it is like 1 outta the whole class wrote wrong, cos we all ended with, 想着想着，我睡着了. Cos, 失眠之夜, u aint supposed to sleep, get it? So those, say, all of us who wrote the above statement, wld have got the whole thing WRONG.
Ok, so the story about me is, my 失眠之夜. I dunno.
Mayb I slept too much in the day. Mayb many things went thru my mind. Mayb it was the tv outside that kept me awake. Its the itch from the dammit mosquito. But the point is, I AM, awake thru the night. darn.
Actually to say the fact, all of the above are true.
I napped abit thru the day. I was listening to the highly interesting 包公 that my dad was watching. Some mosquito or mosquitos are feasting on me. I got like 6 stings in that duration and as I put the anti itch cream. It seeped into my wound from the blading and created an itchy stinging painful sensation. GREAT!
Oh yes, the emo me was thinking alot of things.
I recalled, someone told me, "Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on."
Hmm.... Really?
I dunno if its true to say this, but I dun agree.
Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on, but me, I dun intend to cry, so I dun need a shoulder to cry on.
True mah?
Hmm..mayb... But say the truth...mayb....a shoulder to lean on would be nice...wuahaha............ ............... ...................... .............................. .......................................... ......................................................
Life..is such a weird thing. In a blink or two, each of us are in our different uni-s drifting away and soon graduation comes and we drifted from month-apart meetings to years-apart meetings...wow...
And then we lead out own lives then and there and forgot the good times that we had in our sch days...
People come and exit from our lives...
That sometimes, I wonder, wad lasts?
Nothing I guess...every human have a lifespan...
The show, "Gu Gu the Cat"... makes me so scared of losin wad I hold dear in my heart... Indeed, tears were rollin down my cheeks. Not cos of the touching scenes bt cos I related how its gonna apply to me few years from now..
And I wonder how I wld cope with it.
Sometimes, I really wished there aint someting I hold dear to my heart so that the pain wont b great when u lose it. But isnt it gonna b saded if u were to live a life knowin u haf noting tt u hold dear to ur heart?
Life...is a curious ting.... People u took for granted and let exit from ur life, and things u hold dear to ur heart, but cant escape from the cycle of exiting ur life..
Sometimes....I jus look ard me and see all the friends I've got, and lost...
And wonder...who still considers me as friends, and who no longer does?
I've gained great friens, and lost some good-to-chat-everything with-friends.
But I jus wonder sometimes, hw can ppl u chersh the friendship we hold and yet the other party does nt care bout the friendship.
As I m gazing ard Fb randomly, checking out the websites and friends' links...it sometimes pains to see and tink thru all the up & down in life and go..sighz..well, its over... history...and wonder y U dun put tt history behind u and heck.
Mayb cos friendship means alot to u and when ppl jus let it go so easily, it hurts? Mayb cos I m jus emo-ing now. Mayb...
A fren ask me if I m celebrating tonite, afterall, its New Year.
Unfortunately he caught me at a wrong timing. Call it mood swing, or wadever, bt my sharp and rude reply was,
"Wads there to celebrate?"
"It's not like the last year was so painful that we have to celebrate it's over"
Oh yea, rude, Yes. I can be quite a bitch when I want to aint it?
It's not like it's so painful, or is it?
After tat conversation, I went to try to nap. Cant get to sleep as tings race thru my mind. I started clearing and throwing away some things. Some stuff that I've kept for more than 4 years. Sometings that I once held dear to my heart. Some things I painfully kept, preserved and made sure they last, I threw. Oh well, noting last forever wad.
I packed up those stuff that I wish to keep away from my sight. I shld have kept them away long ago. But finally, I did.
And, for the last day of the year, I've decided to pack up everything, my heart, my stuff, those stuff that I shld have packed, and move on with life and embrace the new new year. A year where things will be drastically different. A year wich will be better than the previous.
I cried out my last bit of tears for no good reasons, not cos I cant forget him, not cos I miss him, but that I recalled of how I had fell in love with a stranger and given my heart away, and eventually, got it broken. Mayb I jus cant forgive, mayb I jus wanna moisturise my eyes, or mayb, I jus want to do so cos its the last day of the year.
Cos nxt yr on, I will not shed a drop of tear for any guy.
.男人不该让女人流泪.
I m sick and tired of crying myself to sleep sometimes. I m sick and tired of crying myself to comfort. I m sick and tired of crying,nt cos I m touched,but cos I m sad and hurt. I m sick and tired of being hurt.
So next yr, I wont let tis happen. And so, my resolution for the comin new year, wich I will accomplish.
1) Concentrate fully on studies without skippin (too many) lectures.
As I tried switching on the lights at 4am in the attempt to finish up my report. To my dismay, it flickered and din switch on.
-.-"'...
I sensed the irony, cos before I took my nap, I was reading this and thinking, wah, when a person is sway, all this can go wrong. Murphy's law.
And guess wad, the nxt ting I know, it happened to me. :(
As I m rushing my many reports, struggling to meet deadlines while juggling my inefficiency and painfully slow pace at producing reports, constipating intensively at my writings, light have to break down.
Suddenly reminded of the few incidents :
Incident 1: When I m trying to fix up uPure
I was twisting using all my might, using spanner stil cannot fix it. Already contemplating calling for help le (the sales person gave me his hp and say if i cant fix, he can come over help me fix up my uPure). My dad suddenly came over and effortlessly twisted off the nozzle, which I was struggling to remove for the past 30min then...I Finally could fix on the uPure.
Incident 2: When the lights flickered.
Yep, incident 2, as described above, I m trying to get some work done and the lights flickered and refused to work.
It is at times like this when I feel, got if house got some guy to help,hw nice it would be. :x
Ok, yah, I m lazy, or incompetent, ok, I admit...*bleah* So, it is at times like this when the thought of jus, findin a man to do the job flashed thru my mind.
So as I m sulking over the need to climb up to reach the living room lights to 'steal' the starter from tt light to fix onto my room's light(while struggling to use my hp to light up the way), I saw little Pig playing by the scratching chair in my room. She is so tiny then, 300gm fluffy pig screaming for milk. And I kinda pretty much single-handedly raised this piggiE (suddenly feel like a single mum).
What cant I do?
After this, I became dam determined to finish the task myself. And I did.
Then, this song flashed into my mind: (ps: lower volume as voice mayb a bit, 刺耳 cos pitch is high)
Subsequently, I gave up. I m growing loner it seems... either i din managed to meet people for lunch, or /and now, even chilling out oso no kakee..
Fortunately, willy was nice enuf to pei me for the day after we settled the work stuff, and we went sit ard and ended up drinking jus milk tea..erm..but hey, at least not lonely at home on this halloween.
But why does everyone, mEow inclusive, hates eating alone?
After I m single, I tot, hmm..I can do things alone, freedom! Yes! I beamed with confidence.
Until the time comes when I needa eat. I realised that human are indeed social animals.
I m constantly looking for supper kakee, lunch kakee..without meals-kakee, meals are meaningless,tasteless...aint it?
:(
That day, I tot, hmm..I'll jus finish up my meal alone, chop chop eat le den go meet my fren. No big deal. As I step into Mad Jack, the waiter asked, table for how many? To which I replied,
"Table for One"...
Suddenly, my stomach quenched and my hunger became non-existent.
A sudden gap and vacuum surfaced.
Suddenly realised how lonely one (mEow) can be.
Fortunately, the day was saved by a sms sent and help was on the way. Soon, I have one person staring at me eat my meal. zzz...better than noting...
Today, I was looking for lunch kakee too. Was ard tpy/bishan area, the familiar place, but..could find no one to eat with. LL eat alone..and the food I ordered was left half eaten though it was 3pm and that was my first meal of the day...
I remember I was recalling my JC2's essay. 失眠之夜. How 80%,nono, 90%..or rather, 95% since it is like 1 outta the whole class wrote wrong, cos we all ended with, 想着想着，我睡着了. Cos, 失眠之夜, u aint supposed to sleep, get it? So those, say, all of us who wrote the above statement, wld have got the whole thing WRONG.
Ok, so the story about me is, my 失眠之夜. I dunno.
Mayb I slept too much in the day. Mayb many things went thru my mind. Mayb it was the tv outside that kept me awake. Its the itch from the dammit mosquito. But the point is, I AM, awake thru the night. darn.
Actually to say the fact, all of the above are true.
I napped abit thru the day. I was listening to the highly interesting 包公 that my dad was watching. Some mosquito or mosquitos are feasting on me. I got like 6 stings in that duration and as I put the anti itch cream. It seeped into my wound from the blading and created an itchy stinging painful sensation. GREAT!
Oh yes, the emo me was thinking alot of things.
I recalled, someone told me, "Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on."
Hmm.... Really?
I dunno if its true to say this, but I dun agree.
Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on, but me, I dun intend to cry, so I dun need a shoulder to cry on.
True mah?
Hmm..mayb... But say the truth...mayb....a shoulder to lean on would be nice...wuahaha............ ............... ...................... .............................. .......................................... ......................................................
The answer is....
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