Shld haf jus b 1 exam..cos I flunked one..so tt makes it 2.
Tml is my exam for that module...Can I jus b superstitious for once, and believe that I m gonna pass it well..cos my seat no. is 88. It means HUAT HUAT! rite? :D
Oh, for my other paper, my seat is 99. no kiddin!
That means I HuaT HUAT for 久久 rite?
It means tis sem I confirm HUAT! rite?
RIGHT????
Please tel me superstitions works now...
Cos I already worked very hard...Now, I jus need some, luck, blessing, and supersticions... can??
May all cat-spirits, cat-goddess, cat elf or wadever cat related blessings I can get, bless this big cat can?
I like it when got people see me to my door with a goodbye kiss.
I like it when got people see me to my door with a goodbye kiss, even though it is safe enuf to go home by myself in this bright daylight at 6pm.
I like it when got people see me to my door with a goodbye kiss, even though it will take an addition 1 hr to get home after taking the trouble to get off nel, see me to the door, go take feeder bus back to nel and nel back.
I m pretty much on schedule. 2 weeks before actual due date.
But I gt a bad feeing my supervisor will bounce back to me with lotsa questions on hw I arrive with the statistics...Heck...let tml worry for itself. I have 3 more reports to complete.
After finishing my draft, I feel so relieved. writing out 6k worth of words is exhausting. This is the first time I did so many literature reviews in my entire uni life. usually only read one or two for each report, but I guess I must have read thru at least 10 this time. Mayb considered as very little for some, but to me alot liaoz k.
After finishing my draft, I feel so tired out. I realised that I have forgotten to eat my lunch. As I devor my lunch at dinner time, I wonder..hmm...hw come I no longer feel hungry after eating 1-2 mouthful...zzz
After finishin my draft, I feel very demotivated though I gt 2 more reports to ideally finish by tonight before I sleep...and yet...I cant get myself to start doing it.
After finishing my draft... mEow feels.... mundane....
Was wondering for some time if I shld even post tis up.
Then again, I tink I shld. Kinda, raise awareness?
Well, weeks ago, one fine day I woke up, feeling bored so outta curiosity, I asked my bff, why my mole bleeds. Well, probably cos I scratched it,duh! Bt well, I was really bored. So I jus typed into google, "mole+bleed", expecting to find some crappy reasons for it.
The first link made me sit up and stare, second link made my eyes widened. Opening each link, I found a familiar word there, "cancer" or "skin cancer" or more specifically, "melanoma".
O.o
Checking thru the symptoms n ways to diy-test it out, most suggestions direct me to go get it check out at the doc.
And so I did.
I went to NUS doc tinking they haf labtest available, so prob can do a test on it. The doc briefly looked at the said mole and den sae, "ok, let me write u a letter to refer u to a demetologist. A skin Doctor".
And so, I proceeded to get my referral letter. I was given a choice of havin her refer me to poly clinic who will refer me to NSC (National Skin centre), or go directly to NSC. The difference is, 3mths and 200bucks diff. hmm... 3mths? Hw am I to survive waitin 3 mths to know if I've got cancer ornot?
Melonma is the most serious kind of skin cancer cos it can spread ard the body. And to wait 3mths? OMG! so indeed, I went for the direct non-waitin method.
The nurse arranging the appointment for me was joking ard with the nurse on the other side. Their laughter are in direct contrast with me, as anxiety built up within me.
For a doc to refer me to a skin specialist under the case "Urgent, asap", when we r suspecting its skin cancer...aint assuring...at all...
The following dae tt I went for the doc in NUS, I went for my apointment to meet the skin specialist at NSC.
Wher's the mole, he asked. I said, at my side, and he say he wld like to see it. so I turned to my side and lifted my top abit, he totally freaked out.lol!
He was like..HOLD HOLD, let me call in the nurse,den he tried awkwardly to strike up a conversation with me while waitin for the nurse.
I almost feel like as "Flasher".
After doing some probs, he said, hafta remove the mole and send for labtesting. hmmm... and will need 2 stitch..
O.o
I lie at my side as they prepared the stuff. Suddenly, I feel abit cold. hmm...fear? scared? yea maybe. As the green cloth is placed onto me and it felt like a BIG OPERATION, I guess some fear strike me.
Afterall, since the 11stitch I have on my face some 2X yrs ago, I havent have any stitches le..
After tt, doc injected the anesthetic to me. Kinda hurt, cos its at the bone-ny side. U noe, wher ppl tickle u at? Super pain lah....
Then i tink he pinch me, and asked, "Issit painful?", to which I replied, "huh? Wad pain"?
Lol.
It felt so long as I feel him tug at my skin. Saw him sewing, and seems to be takin really forever. I turned abit to try to look, bt cant. Cos its at my side. As i was wondering, hw many stitch, the cute nurse turn and gimme a Victory-handsign
two stitch!
She said.
I m to go back in 2wks time too to remove stitch and get my results.
As I pay the bills, the bills hurt more than the operation itself. 300bucks...
2 wks later, of cos, I went back, and without much fuss got the stitch removed, and see the doc, who told me its clinically a mole. hmmm...ok...
Not unexpected.
But yea, I jus spent 300bucks for a specialist to remove a mole of mine to tel me its IS jus a mole.
lol!
Well, moral of the story is not to complain, but well, to sae, hey, if u gt a mole tt dun look like a mole cos its growing bigger, and is not symmetrical in shape, there maybe a chance it aint a simple mole.
There is risk that it is not a simple mole.
Curiosity kills the cat, but hey, if it had not been a simple mole, bt is cancerous instead, curiousity had saved this Cat afterall..
So, start watching ur moles..
Noting personal bout hving someting against the mole.. :P
Hmm...since....since last yr, after I came back from Hk.
After I became single n more freedom I've acquired, I started to drink more often than I had for the past 2X years of my life.
Not that I go clubbin every weekend, or drink everyweek, jus that I drink every few wks, or when a fren celebrates birthday. or sometimes, jus as we sit ard and chill. Last time, I dun even drink. I prob drink only twice in the 4 years I m attached, and before that, I din even drink at all.
Issit of peers influence or jus that we r growing older, drinking is normal? cos I go japan oso drink sakae and stuff... maks me wonder....
Anyway, i found out tt drinkin is nt so good. I put on 3kg and cant shed it for mths. Probably cos I m always on stella. I stopped drinking beer and finally after weeks, I shed the 2kg outta the 3kg. I realised someting, beer is fattening.
I've therefore came up with the decision.
Stop drinking...
At least, stop drinking beer.
And so, I've decided to indulge in wine and whisky n jim beam nxt time. :D
*whoops* Disclaimer: Tis post aint intended for ppl under the age of 16 or 18, whichever is the legal age to drink.
Well, yea, suzy cracked. Notice that picture from the previous post. Yes, it cracked. I did someting stupid and someting happened and so it cracked..Yea, there, at the bottom left hand corner.
I m really feeling really grateful that a fren who, upon seeing my fb update asked if I m ok and anyting he can help. I explained wad happened, and with ease, he offered to build me a desktop and payment, he pay first and I pay him back in installment later on. I din take up the offer though it was so temptingly there. But I really am grateful that in times of needs, I haf frens who, without any T&C offers to help.
That, I m deeply grateful.
Ok, so the solution.
I racked my brain to get the cheapest solution. I considered hire-purchase buy a laptop from sch, get a loan from sch to buy a laptop, and various options. In the end, I came up with a cute idea, buy a monitor.
And I did. And so now, I have a monitor, but no cpu and no keyboard and stuff, and i connect it to my Suzy.
Well, that means I will be building me a desktop when I graduate, get a job and can afford it.
So for now, I m using a laptop that looks like tis:
Anyone wanna contribute to "Buy-mEow-a-desktop-fund" ? March is coming *hint hint* lol!
Oh, special thanks to the gov for the GST credits that is coming in this 1st of march. For this monitor cost 199bucks, wich jus nice, nicely paid for, by the government. :D
For the first time since a long time, I nv freak out. I nv felt scared. But as I see that prof's name as the prof for that module, I nearly feel lik dyin.
I would rather jump off a building rather than take that module, but the truth is, even if I jump off a building, I still needa take that module. :(
For the first time since I decided to work hard, I felt demoralised. Nearly...shed my first tear of sorrow. But after 'talking' to myself for some time, I decided that I shld not give up without a fight. And so, a fight I shall put up.
Its more like a fight with my greatest fear. Its not easy and its not gonna be easy. But at least, I will try.
As I m in school struggling through my lessons, this song came into my head.
雨中即景
some of the lyrics jumped out at me.
哗啦啦啦啦 淋湿了好多人脸上失去了笑 无奈何的望着天 叹叹气把头摇
Yea, tt pretty much described my feeling. For since very long, I've nv been this afraid of attending lesson. I've nv wished so much that the time for lecture nv come. I'v nv been so growingly scared as the time for lecture creeps closer.
It is not the packed schdule that I m worried about, but rather, I m more concerned about that lecture of that module.
Seriously, for the whole day, I was pretty much stressed about this module. Whether that prof will still hate me. Whether that module will kill me again.
But well, women, is 善变。 I heard quite a number of big jokes today which made me laugh til I m not hungry. lol.
I wonder if it is a phrase of life for all cats owners to start wondering if we are growing more and more to look like our cat? cos blogger cat-fren ALSO wrote on hw he tink on whether he looks like his cats..
me too, have the same quieries... and got some ppl comment I look like cat, act Like cat, and socialise with 3 other cats... i am a cat..mEow! But well, I like it. call me mEow, I b happier..I b happier as a cat, cat-human. MEOW!
Shld haf jus b 1 exam..cos I flunked one..so tt makes it 2.
Tml is my exam for that module...Can I jus b superstitious for once, and believe that I m gonna pass it well..cos my seat no. is 88. It means HUAT HUAT! rite? :D
Oh, for my other paper, my seat is 99. no kiddin!
That means I HuaT HUAT for 久久 rite?
It means tis sem I confirm HUAT! rite?
RIGHT????
Please tel me superstitions works now...
Cos I already worked very hard...Now, I jus need some, luck, blessing, and supersticions... can??
May all cat-spirits, cat-goddess, cat elf or wadever cat related blessings I can get, bless this big cat can?
I like it when got people see me to my door with a goodbye kiss.
I like it when got people see me to my door with a goodbye kiss, even though it is safe enuf to go home by myself in this bright daylight at 6pm.
I like it when got people see me to my door with a goodbye kiss, even though it will take an addition 1 hr to get home after taking the trouble to get off nel, see me to the door, go take feeder bus back to nel and nel back.
I m pretty much on schedule. 2 weeks before actual due date.
But I gt a bad feeing my supervisor will bounce back to me with lotsa questions on hw I arrive with the statistics...Heck...let tml worry for itself. I have 3 more reports to complete.
After finishing my draft, I feel so relieved. writing out 6k worth of words is exhausting. This is the first time I did so many literature reviews in my entire uni life. usually only read one or two for each report, but I guess I must have read thru at least 10 this time. Mayb considered as very little for some, but to me alot liaoz k.
After finishing my draft, I feel so tired out. I realised that I have forgotten to eat my lunch. As I devor my lunch at dinner time, I wonder..hmm...hw come I no longer feel hungry after eating 1-2 mouthful...zzz
After finishin my draft, I feel very demotivated though I gt 2 more reports to ideally finish by tonight before I sleep...and yet...I cant get myself to start doing it.
After finishing my draft... mEow feels.... mundane....
Was wondering for some time if I shld even post tis up.
Then again, I tink I shld. Kinda, raise awareness?
Well, weeks ago, one fine day I woke up, feeling bored so outta curiosity, I asked my bff, why my mole bleeds. Well, probably cos I scratched it,duh! Bt well, I was really bored. So I jus typed into google, "mole+bleed", expecting to find some crappy reasons for it.
The first link made me sit up and stare, second link made my eyes widened. Opening each link, I found a familiar word there, "cancer" or "skin cancer" or more specifically, "melanoma".
O.o
Checking thru the symptoms n ways to diy-test it out, most suggestions direct me to go get it check out at the doc.
And so I did.
I went to NUS doc tinking they haf labtest available, so prob can do a test on it. The doc briefly looked at the said mole and den sae, "ok, let me write u a letter to refer u to a demetologist. A skin Doctor".
And so, I proceeded to get my referral letter. I was given a choice of havin her refer me to poly clinic who will refer me to NSC (National Skin centre), or go directly to NSC. The difference is, 3mths and 200bucks diff. hmm... 3mths? Hw am I to survive waitin 3 mths to know if I've got cancer ornot?
Melonma is the most serious kind of skin cancer cos it can spread ard the body. And to wait 3mths? OMG! so indeed, I went for the direct non-waitin method.
The nurse arranging the appointment for me was joking ard with the nurse on the other side. Their laughter are in direct contrast with me, as anxiety built up within me.
For a doc to refer me to a skin specialist under the case "Urgent, asap", when we r suspecting its skin cancer...aint assuring...at all...
The following dae tt I went for the doc in NUS, I went for my apointment to meet the skin specialist at NSC.
Wher's the mole, he asked. I said, at my side, and he say he wld like to see it. so I turned to my side and lifted my top abit, he totally freaked out.lol!
He was like..HOLD HOLD, let me call in the nurse,den he tried awkwardly to strike up a conversation with me while waitin for the nurse.
I almost feel like as "Flasher".
After doing some probs, he said, hafta remove the mole and send for labtesting. hmmm... and will need 2 stitch..
O.o
I lie at my side as they prepared the stuff. Suddenly, I feel abit cold. hmm...fear? scared? yea maybe. As the green cloth is placed onto me and it felt like a BIG OPERATION, I guess some fear strike me.
Afterall, since the 11stitch I have on my face some 2X yrs ago, I havent have any stitches le..
After tt, doc injected the anesthetic to me. Kinda hurt, cos its at the bone-ny side. U noe, wher ppl tickle u at? Super pain lah....
Then i tink he pinch me, and asked, "Issit painful?", to which I replied, "huh? Wad pain"?
Lol.
It felt so long as I feel him tug at my skin. Saw him sewing, and seems to be takin really forever. I turned abit to try to look, bt cant. Cos its at my side. As i was wondering, hw many stitch, the cute nurse turn and gimme a Victory-handsign
two stitch!
She said.
I m to go back in 2wks time too to remove stitch and get my results.
As I pay the bills, the bills hurt more than the operation itself. 300bucks...
2 wks later, of cos, I went back, and without much fuss got the stitch removed, and see the doc, who told me its clinically a mole. hmmm...ok...
Not unexpected.
But yea, I jus spent 300bucks for a specialist to remove a mole of mine to tel me its IS jus a mole.
lol!
Well, moral of the story is not to complain, but well, to sae, hey, if u gt a mole tt dun look like a mole cos its growing bigger, and is not symmetrical in shape, there maybe a chance it aint a simple mole.
There is risk that it is not a simple mole.
Curiosity kills the cat, but hey, if it had not been a simple mole, bt is cancerous instead, curiousity had saved this Cat afterall..
So, start watching ur moles..
Noting personal bout hving someting against the mole.. :P
Hmm...since....since last yr, after I came back from Hk.
After I became single n more freedom I've acquired, I started to drink more often than I had for the past 2X years of my life.
Not that I go clubbin every weekend, or drink everyweek, jus that I drink every few wks, or when a fren celebrates birthday. or sometimes, jus as we sit ard and chill. Last time, I dun even drink. I prob drink only twice in the 4 years I m attached, and before that, I din even drink at all.
Issit of peers influence or jus that we r growing older, drinking is normal? cos I go japan oso drink sakae and stuff... maks me wonder....
Anyway, i found out tt drinkin is nt so good. I put on 3kg and cant shed it for mths. Probably cos I m always on stella. I stopped drinking beer and finally after weeks, I shed the 2kg outta the 3kg. I realised someting, beer is fattening.
I've therefore came up with the decision.
Stop drinking...
At least, stop drinking beer.
And so, I've decided to indulge in wine and whisky n jim beam nxt time. :D
*whoops* Disclaimer: Tis post aint intended for ppl under the age of 16 or 18, whichever is the legal age to drink.
Well, yea, suzy cracked. Notice that picture from the previous post. Yes, it cracked. I did someting stupid and someting happened and so it cracked..Yea, there, at the bottom left hand corner.
I m really feeling really grateful that a fren who, upon seeing my fb update asked if I m ok and anyting he can help. I explained wad happened, and with ease, he offered to build me a desktop and payment, he pay first and I pay him back in installment later on. I din take up the offer though it was so temptingly there. But I really am grateful that in times of needs, I haf frens who, without any T&C offers to help.
That, I m deeply grateful.
Ok, so the solution.
I racked my brain to get the cheapest solution. I considered hire-purchase buy a laptop from sch, get a loan from sch to buy a laptop, and various options. In the end, I came up with a cute idea, buy a monitor.
And I did. And so now, I have a monitor, but no cpu and no keyboard and stuff, and i connect it to my Suzy.
Well, that means I will be building me a desktop when I graduate, get a job and can afford it.
So for now, I m using a laptop that looks like tis:
Anyone wanna contribute to "Buy-mEow-a-desktop-fund" ? March is coming *hint hint* lol!
Oh, special thanks to the gov for the GST credits that is coming in this 1st of march. For this monitor cost 199bucks, wich jus nice, nicely paid for, by the government. :D
For the first time since a long time, I nv freak out. I nv felt scared. But as I see that prof's name as the prof for that module, I nearly feel lik dyin.
I would rather jump off a building rather than take that module, but the truth is, even if I jump off a building, I still needa take that module. :(
For the first time since I decided to work hard, I felt demoralised. Nearly...shed my first tear of sorrow. But after 'talking' to myself for some time, I decided that I shld not give up without a fight. And so, a fight I shall put up.
Its more like a fight with my greatest fear. Its not easy and its not gonna be easy. But at least, I will try.
As I m in school struggling through my lessons, this song came into my head.
雨中即景
some of the lyrics jumped out at me.
哗啦啦啦啦 淋湿了好多人脸上失去了笑 无奈何的望着天 叹叹气把头摇
Yea, tt pretty much described my feeling. For since very long, I've nv been this afraid of attending lesson. I've nv wished so much that the time for lecture nv come. I'v nv been so growingly scared as the time for lecture creeps closer.
It is not the packed schdule that I m worried about, but rather, I m more concerned about that lecture of that module.
Seriously, for the whole day, I was pretty much stressed about this module. Whether that prof will still hate me. Whether that module will kill me again.
But well, women, is 善变。 I heard quite a number of big jokes today which made me laugh til I m not hungry. lol.
I wonder if it is a phrase of life for all cats owners to start wondering if we are growing more and more to look like our cat? cos blogger cat-fren ALSO wrote on hw he tink on whether he looks like his cats..
me too, have the same quieries... and got some ppl comment I look like cat, act Like cat, and socialise with 3 other cats... i am a cat..mEow! But well, I like it. call me mEow, I b happier..I b happier as a cat, cat-human. MEOW!
do u noe mEow?
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